Tuesday, January 15, 2019
The Twilight Saga 4: Breaking Dawn 6. DISTRACTIONS
My entertainment became the number-one priority on isle Esme. We snorkeled (well, I snorkeled piece he flaunted his ability to go with unw intercept oxygen indefinitely). We explored the small jungle that ringed the rocky critical peak. We vi sited the parrots that lived in the dis young wo manhoodopy on the s come inh stop of the island. We teached the sunset from the rocky western cove. We swam with the porpoises that played in the warm,shallow water at that arse. Or at least I did when Edward was in the water, the porpoises disappeargond as if a shark was near.I knew what was going on. He was trying to keep me busy, distracted, so I that wouldnt continue badgering him a eke out the sex affaire. Whenever I move to talk him into taking it easy with one of the million DVDs nether the super-screen germ plasm TV, he would lure me out of the house with magic explicates necessity coral reefs and submerged caves and sea turtles. We were going, going, going all day, so tha t I found myself completely famished and exhausted when the sun eventually set.I drooped over my plate afterwards I finished dinner every(prenominal) night erst part Id actually fallen asleep unspoiled at the table and hed had to railroad carry me to cognize. Part of it was that Edward al delegacys made similarwise oft food for one, further I was so hungry after go and climbing all day that I ate most of it. accordingly, upright and worn out, I could b bely keep my eyes apply. All spark of the plan, no doubt.Exhaustion didnt help much with my attempts at persuasion. But I didnt give up. I tried crusadeing, pleading, and grouching, all to no avail. I was ordinarily unconscious before I could really press my case far. And soce my dreams felt so real nightmares mostly, made to a greater extent vivid, I depended, by the withal-bright colors of the island that I woke up tired no matter how ache I slept.About a calendar week or so after wed gotten to the island, I decided to try compromise. It had worked for us in the past.I was sleeping in the blue fashion right sullen. The cleaning crew wasnt due until the near day, and so the white room inactive had a snowy top of bolt batch. The blue room was smaller, the bed more than than reasonably proportioned. The sm another(prenominal)s weredark, paneled in teak, and the fittings were all luxurious blue silk.Id taken to wearing both(prenominal) of Alices lingerie collection to sleep in at night which werent so disclo current compared to the s mintty bikinis shed packed for me when it came right refine to it. I wondered if shed seen a good deal of wherefore I would want such things, and thus shuddered, embarrassed by that scene.Id started out slow with innocent ivory sitins, worried that revealing more of my skin would be the opposite of helpful, scarce ready to try anything. Edward beed to watching nonhing, as if I were wearing the same ratty old sweat I wore at home.The b ruises were much better now yellowing in some places and disappearing alto leaseher in some others so tonight I pulled out one of the scarier pieces as I got ready in the paneled bathroom. It was black, lacy, and gluey to case at even when it wasnt on. I was careful not to look in the mirror before I went back to the bedroom. I didnt want to lose my nerve.I had the satisfaction of watching his eyes pop open wide-eyed for upright a second before he controlled his boldness.What do you think? I asked, pirouetting so that he could see every angle.He cleared his throat. You look beautiful. You al looks do.Thanks, I said a micro chip sourly.I was also tired to resist climbing quickly into the hushed bed. He fix his blazonry somewhat me and pulled meagainst his chest, simply this was routine it was too hot to sleep without his cool body close.Ill make you a deal, I said sleepily.I willing not make any deals with you, he answered.You involvent even comprehend what Im mu tilateering.It doesnt matter.I sighed. Dang it. And I really wanted Oh well.He rolled his eyes.I un equivalentable mine and let the bait sit in that location. I yawned.It took only a minute not long decent for me to zonk out.All right. What is it you want?I gritted my teeth for a second, fighting a smile. If there was one thing he couldnt resist, it was an opportunity to give me something.Well, I was thinking I know that the whole Dartmouth thing was just supposed(a) to be a cover story, moreover honestly, one semester of college belike wouldnt bulge out me, I said, echoing his words from long ago, when hed tried to persuade me to put off becoming a vampire. Charlie would get a thrill out of Dartmouth stories, I bet. Sure, it might be embarrassing if I cant keep up with all the brainiacs. Still eighteen, nineteen. Its really not such a big difference. Its not like Im going to get crows feet in the next year.He was silent for a long moment. past, in a low fathom, he said, You would grasp. You would stay compassionate.I held my tongue, letting the offer sink in.Why are you doing this to me? he said th close to his teeth, his tone suddenly angry. Isnt it hard comely without all of this? He grabbed a handful of lace that was ruffled on my thigh. For a moment, I thought he was going to rip it from the seam. Then his hand relaxed. It doesnt matter. I wont make any deals with you.I want to goto college.No, you dont. And there is nothing that is worth risking your life again. Thats worth hurting you.But I do want to go. Well, its not college as much as its that I want I want to be humane a little while longer.He closed his eyes and exhaled through his nose. You are qualification me insane, Bella. Havent we had this argument a million times, you always begging to be a vampire without delay?Yes, but well, I have a reason to be human that I didnt have before.Whats that?Guess, I said, and I dragged myself off the pillows to kiss him.He kissed me back, but not in a way that made me think I was winning. It was more like he was beingness careful not to hurt my feelings he was completely, maddeningly in control of himself. Gently, he pulled me away after a moment and cradled me against his chest.You are so human, Bella. rule by your hormones. He chuckled.Thats the whole imply, Edward. I like this voice of being human. I dont want to give it up yet. I dont want to continue through years of being a blood-crazed newborn for some part of this to come back to me.I yawned, and he smiled.Youre tired. Sleep, love. He started sing the cradle form hed composed for me when we number one met.I wonder why Im so tired, I muttered sarcastically. That couldnt be part of your scheme or anything.He just chuckled once and went back to humming.For as tired as Ive been, youd think Id sleep better.The song broke off. Youve been sleeping like the dead, Bella. You havent said a word in your sleep since we got here. If it werent for the breathe, Id wor ry you were slipping into a coma.I ignored the snoring jibe I didnt snore. I havent been tossing? Thats weird. Usually Im all over the bed when Im having nightmares. And shouting.Youve been having nightmares?Vivid ones. They make me so tired. I yawned. I cant believe I havent been babbling about them all night.What are they about?Different things but the same, you know, because of the colors.Colors?Its all so bright and real. Usually, when Im dreaming, I know that I am. With these, I dont know Im asleep. It makes them scarier.He heavy(a)ed disturbed when he spoke again. What is fright you?I shuddered slightly. Mostly I hesitated.Mostly? he prompted.I wasnt sure why, but I didnt want to tell him about the child in my recurring nightmare there wassomething private about that particular horror. So, instead of giving him the full description, I gave him just one element. Certainly sufficient to frighten me or anyone else.The Volturi, I whispered.He hugged me tighter. They arent go ing to bother us anymore. Youll be immortal soon, and theyll have no reason.I let him nurture me, feeling a little guilty that hed misunderstood. The nightmares werent like that, exactly. It wasnt that I was frightened for myself I was afraid for the boy.He wasnt the same boy as that first dream the vampire child with the bloodred eyes who sat on a pile of dead people I loved. This boy Id dreamed of iv times in the last week was definitely human his cheeks were redden and his wide eyes were a soft green. But just like the other child, he shook with fear and desperation as the Volturi closed in on us.In this dream that was both new and old, I simply had to protect the unknown child. There was no other option. At the same time, I knew that I would fail.He saw the desolation on my shell. What can I do to help?I shook it off. Theyre just dreams, Edward.Do you want me to sing to you? Ill sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away.Theyre not all bad. Some are nice. So colo rful. Underwater, with the fish and the coral. It all seems like its really happening I dont know that Im dreaming. Maybe this island is the problem. Its really bright here.Do you want to go home?No. No, not yet. Cant we stay awhile longer?We can stay as long as you want, Bella, he promised me.When does the semester start? I wasnt paying attention before.He sighed. He may have started humming again, too, but I was under before I could be sure.Later, when I awoke in the dark, it was with shock. The dream had been so very real so vivid, so sensory. I gasped aloud, now, disoriented by the dark room. Only a second ago, it seemed, I had been under the brilliant sun.Bella? Edward whispered, his fortification tight almost me, shaking me gently. argon you all right, sweetheart?Oh, I gasped again. Just a dream. Not real. To my utter astonishment, tears overflowed from my eyes without warning, gushing down my face.Bella he said louder, alarmed now. Whats wrong? He wiped the tears from my hot cheeks with cold, harebrained fingers, but others followed.It was only a dream. I couldnt contain the low diddly that broke in my voice. The sense datumless tears were disturbing,but I couldnt get control of the pass outing grief that gripped me. I wanted so mischievously for the dream to be real.Its okay, love, youre fine. Im here. He rocked me back and forth, a little too fast to soothe. Did you have another nightmare? It wasnt real, it wasnt real.Not a nightmare. I shook my head, scrubbing the back of my hand against my eyes. It was a good dream. My voice broke again.Then why are you crying? he asked, bewildered.Because I woke up, I wailed, wrapping my harness well-nigh his distinguish in a chokehold and sobbing into his throat.He laughed once at my logic, but the sound was tense with concern.Everythings all right, Bella. Take deep breaths.It was so real, I cried. I wanted it to be real. split me about it, he urged. Maybe that will help.We were on the beach. I trailed off, pulling back to look with tear-filled eyes at his anxious angels face, dim in the darkness. I stared at him broodingly as the illogical grief began to ebb.And? he finally prompted.I blinked the tears out of my eyes, torn. Oh, Edward Tell me, Bella, he pleaded, eyes wild with worry at the suffer in my voice.But I couldnt. Instead I clutched my blazon around his neck again and locked my mouth with his feverishly. It wasnt desire at all it was need, acute to the point of pain. His response was instant but quickly followed by his rebuff.He struggled with me as gently as he could in his surprise, holding me away, grasping my shoulders.No, Bella, he insisted, looking at me as if he was worried that Id lost my mind.My arms dropped, defeated, the bizarre tears spilling in a fresh torrent down my face, a new sob rising in my throat. He was right I must be crazy.He stared at me with confused, anguished eyes.Im s-s-s-orry, I mumbled.But he pulled me to him then, hugging me tightly t o his marble chest.I cant, Bella, I cant His moan was agonized.Please, I said, my plea muffled against his skin. Please, Edward?I couldnt tell if he was travel by the tears trembling in my voice, or if he was unprepared to deal with the suddenness of my attack, or if his need was simply as unbearable in that moment as my own. But whatever the reason, he pulled my lips back to his, surrendering with a groan.And we began where my dream had left off.I stayed very still when I woke up in the morning and tried to keep my respiration even. I was afraid to open my eyes.I was lying crosswise Edwards chest, but he was very still and his arms were not wrapped around me. That was a bad sign. I was afraid to admit I was brace and face his anger no matter whom it was directed at now.Carefully, I peeked through my eyelashes. He was staring up at the dark ceiling, his arms behind his head. I pulled myself up on my elbow so that I could see his face better. It was smooth, expressionless.How muc h trouble am I in? I asked in a small voice.Heaps, he said, but sullen his head and smirked at me.I breathed a sigh of relief. I am sorry, I said. I didnt mean Well, I dont know exactly what that was last night. I shook my head at the memory of the ridiculous tears, the crushing grief.You never did tell me what your dream was about.I guess I didnt but I sort of showed you what it was about. I laughed nervously.Oh, he said. His eyes widened, and then he blinked. Interesting.It was a very good dream, I murmured. He didnt comment, so a fewer seconds later I asked, Am I forgiven?Im thinking about it.I sat up, planning to examine myself there didnt seem to be any feathers, at least. But as I moved, an peculiar(a) wave of vertigo hit. I swayed and fell back against the pillows.Whoa head rush.His arms were around me then. You slept for a long time. Twelve hours.Twelve?How strange.I gave myself a quick once-over while I spoke, trying to be inconspicuous about it. I looked fine. The b ruises on my arms were still a week old, yellowing. I stretched experimentally. I felt fine, too. Well, better than fine, actually.Is the inventory complete?I nodded sheepishly. The pillows all appear to have survived.Unfortunately, I cant say the same for your, er, nightgown. He nodded toward the foot of the bed, where several scraps of black lace were strewn across the silk sheets.Thats too bad, I said. I liked that one.I did, too.Were there any other casualties? I asked timidly.Ill have to buy Esme a new bed frame, he confessed, glancing over his shoulder. I followed his gaze and was shocked to see that large chunks of woodland had apparently been gouged from the left side of the headboard.Hmm. I frowned. Youd think I would have heard that.You seem to be extraordinarily unobservant when your attention is other than involved.I was a bit absorbed, I admitted, blushing a deep red.He touched my burning cheek and sighed. Im really going to miss that.I stared at his face, searching fo r any signs of the anger or penitence I feared. He gazed back at me evenly, his expression calm but otherwise unreadable.How are you feeling?7He laughed.What? I demanded.You look so guilty like youve committed a crime.I feel guilty, I muttered.So you seduced your all-too-willing husband. Thats not a capital offense.He seemed to be teasing.My cheeks got hotter. The word seduced implies a certain amount of premeditation.Maybe that was the wrong word, he allowed.Youre not angry?He smiled ruefully. Tm not angry.Why not?Well. . . He paused. I didnt hurt you, for one thing. It was easier this time, to control myself, to channel the excesses. His eyes flickered to the damage frame again. Maybe because I had a better view of what to expect.A hopeful smile started to spread across my face. I told you that it was all about trust.He rolled his eyes.My stomach growled, and he laughed. Breakfast time for the human? he asked.Please, I said, hopping out of bed. I moved too quickly, though, and had to stagger drunkenly to regain my balance. He caught me before I could stumble into the dresser.Are you all right?If I dont have a better sense of equilibrium in my next life, Im demanding a refund.I cooked this morning, frying up some eggs too hungry to do anything more elaborate. Impatient, I flipped them onto a plate after just a few minutes.Since when do you eat eggs sunny-side up? he asked.Since now.Do you know how umpteen eggs youve gone through in the last week? He pulled the trash bin out from under the sink it was full of go off blue cartons.Weird, I said after swallowing a scorching bite. This place is messing with my appetite. And my dreams, and my already indistinct balance. But I like it here. Well believably have to leave soon, though, wont we, to make it to Dartmouth in time? Wow, I guess we need to find a place to live and stuff, too.He sat down next to me. You can give up the college pretense now youve gotten what you wanted. And we didnt agree to a deal , so there are no thread attached.I snorted. It wasnt a pretense, Edward. I dont spend my free time p visual senseting like some people do. What can we do to wear Bella out today? I said in a poor impression of his voice. He laughed, unashamed. I really do want a little more time being human. I leaned over to run my hand across his bare chest. I have not had enough.He gave me a dubious look. For this? he asked, catching my hand as it moved down his stomach. conjure was the key all along? He rolled his eyes. Why didnt i think of that? he muttered sarcastically. I could have saved myself a lot of arguments.I laughed. Yeah, probably.You are so human, he said again.I know.A hint of a smile pulled at his lips. Were going to Dartmouth? Really?Ill probably fail out in one semester.Ill tutor you. The smile was wide now. Youre going to love college.Do you think we can find an flatbed this late?He grimaced, looking guilty. Well, we sort of already have a house there. You know, just in cas e.You bought a house?Real kingdom is a good investment.I raised one eyebrow and then let it go. So were ready, then.Ill have to see if we can keep your before car for a little longer___Yes, heaven forbid I not be protected from tanks.He grinned.How much longer can we stay? I asked.Were fine on time. A few more weeks, if you want. And then we can visit Charlie before we go to New Hampshire. We could spend Christmas with Renee___His words multi-colored a very happy immediate future, one free of pain for everyone involved. The Jacob-drawer, all but forgotten, rattled, and i amended the thought for almost everyone.This wasnt get any easier. Now that Id discovered exactly how good being human could be, it was tempting to let my plans drift. Eighteen or nineteen, nineteen or cardinal Did it really matter? I wouldnt change so much in a year. And being human with Edward The choice got trickier every day.A few weeks, I agreed. And then, because there never seemed to be enough time, I a dded, So I was thinking you know what I was saying about practice before?He laughed. Can you hold on to that thought? I hear a boat. The cleaning crew must be here.He wanted me to hold on to that thought. So did that mean he was not going to give me any more trouble about practicing? I smiled.Let me explain the mess in the white room to Gustavo, and then we can go out. Theres a place in the jungle on the south I dont want to go out. i am not hiking all over the island today. I want to stay here and watch a movie.He pursed his lips, trying not to laugh at my dissatisfy tone. All right, whatever youd like. Why dont you pick one out while I get the door?I didnt hear a knock.He cocked his head to the side, listening. A half second later, a faint, timid rap on the door sounded. He grinned and turned for the hallway.I wandered over to the shelves under the big TV and started scanning through the titles. It was hard to decide where to begin. They had more DVDs than a rental store.I coul d hear Edwards low, velvet voice as he came back down the hall, conversing fluidly in what I assumed was completed Portuguese. Another, harsher, human voice answered in the same tongue.Edward led them into the room, pointing toward the kitchen on his way. The twain Brazilians looked incredibly short and dark next to him. One was a round man, the other a slight female, both their faces creased with lines. Edward gestured to me with a proud smile, and I heard my name mixed in with a flurry of unfamiliar with(predicate) words. I flushed a little as I thought of the downy mess in the white room, which they would soon encounter. The little man smiled at me politely.But the tiny coffee-skinned woman didnt smile. She stared at me with a premix of shock, worry, and most of all, wide-eyed fear. Before I could react, Edward motioned for them to follow him toward the chicken coop, and they were gone.When he reappeared, he was alone. He walked swiftly to my side and wrapped his arms around me.Whats with her? I whispered urgently, remembering her panicked expression.He shrugged, unperturbed. Kaures part Ticuna Indian. She was raised to be more superstitious or you could call it more assured than those who live in the modern world. She suspects what I am, or close enough. He still didnt sound worried. They have their own legends here. The Libishomen a blood-drinking demon who preys exclusively on beautiful women. He leered at me.Beautiful women only? Well, that was motley of flattering.She looked terrified, I said.She is but mostly shes worried about you.Me?Shes afraid of why I have you here, all alone. He chuckled darkly and then looked toward the wall of movies. Oh well, why dont you choose something for us to watch? Thats an acceptably human thing to do.Yes, Im sure a movie will convince her that youre human. I laughed and clasped my arms securely around his neck, stretching up on my tiptoes. He leaned down so that I could kiss him, and then his arms tightened around me, lifting me off the floor so he didnt have to bend.Movie, schmovie, I muttered as his lips moved down my throat, twisting my fingers in his bronze hair.Then I heard a gasp, and he put me down abruptly. Kaure stood frozen in the hallway, feathers in her black hair, a large sack of more feathers in her arms, an expression of horror on her face. She stared at me, her eyes bugging out, as I blushed and looked down. Then she recovered herself and murmured something that, even in an unfamiliar language, was clearly an apology. Edward smiled and answered in a friendly tone. She turned her dark eyes awayand continued down the hall.She was thinking what I think she was thinking, wasnt she? I muttered.He laughed at my tangled sentence. Yes.Here, I said, reaching out at random and grabbing a movie. rate this on and we can pretend to watch it.It was an old musical with jolly faces and fluffy dresses on the front.Very honeymoonish, Edward approved.While actors on the screen danced t heir way through a perky introduction song, I lolled on the sofa, nuzzle into Edwards arms.Will we move back into the white room now? I wondered idly.I dont know. Ive already mangled the headboard in the other room beyond repair maybe if we limit the destruction to one bailiwick of the house, Esme might invite us back someday.I smiled widely. So there will be more destruction?He laughed at my expression. I think it might be safer if its premeditated, rather than if I wait for you to rape me again.It would only be a matter of time, I agreed casually, but my pulse was racing in my veins.Is there something the matter with your heart?Nope. flushed as a horse. I paused. Did you want to go survey the demolition zone now?Maybe it would be more polite to wait until were alone. You may not notice me tearing the furniture apart, but it would probably scare them.In truth, Id already forgotten the people in the other room. Right. Drat.Gustavo and Kaure moved restfully through the house w hile I waited impatiently for them to finish and tried to pay attention to the happily-ever-after on the screen. I was scratch to get sleepy though, according to Edward, Id slept half the day when a rough voice startled me. Edward sat up, keeping me cradled against him, and answered Gustavo in flowing Portuguese. Gustavo nodded and walked quietly toward the front door.Theyre finished, Edward told me.So that would mean that were alone now?How about tiffin first? he suggested.I bit my lip, torn by the dilemma. I was pretty hungry.With a smile, he took my hand and led me to the kitchen. He knew my face so well, it didnt matter that he couldnt read my mind.This is getting out of hand, I complained when I finally felt full.Do you want to swim with the dolphins this good afternoon burn off the calories? he asked.Maybe later. I had another idea for burning calories.And what was that?Well, theres an awful lot of headboard left But I didnt finish. Hed already swept me up into his arms, and his lips silenced mine as he carried me with cold-blooded speed to the blue room.
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